It is forbidden for me to cry for a couple of reasons. What a difficult undertaking this is. I am not even allowed to shed a tear. Even the skies allow the dark and heavy clouds to shed their load. For after the rains, the heavens will open up and bring about the clear skies. Why am I not allowed to shed the heavy load of my soul as my burden becomes unbearable and too much to carry. And the tears, if I can shed, then will relieve my heavy burden and fall like the drops of pearls from a broken necklace scattering all over, to heal my sadness.